I Spent 6 Years Trying To Heal My Depression And Then Returned With A Colorful Photography

It all started with a random picture in a random place that I can barely remember. Trying to pull myself together, I went places but the memories seemed to haunt me. I was feeling angry, frustrated, deceived, betrayed and manipulated. 

I wonder if you can relate?

Well, probably it is too early for me to ask this question since you are here to look at my artwork. But let’s get to know each other a little bit more before I show everything that you are about to see. I promise you that you won’t see anything scary or blood-related. I’m over that. 

Lately, I was reading a book written by Susan Sontag called ‘On Photography’. She wrote that photography is a tool to promote your nostalgia. 

“Photography is an electic art, a twilight art. Most subjects photographed are, just by virtue being photographed, touched with pathos. An ugly or grotesque subject may be moving because it has been dignified by the attention of the photographer. A beautiful subject can be the object of rueful feelings, because it has aged or decayed or no longer exists. All photographs are ‘memento mori’. To take a photograph is to participate in another person’s (or thing’s) mortality, vulnerability, mutability. Precisely by slicing out this moment and freezing it, all photographs testify to time’s relentless melt.”

I love to record people’s emotions. Just like Susan wrote, slice out the moment and freeze it. Hence, I froze the moment of what I thought was the happiest period in my life. Old photos bring back a time, a place, and a life that are long gone. They remind you the people that are long gone. Unfortunately, I spent five or six years trying to heal myself from depression. I did not know how to make it back then. I disconnected from almost everything. 

In the process of self-healing,  photography and getting closer to nature helped me a lot. Now I see everything from a different, colorful perspective. I love things in colors and I’m grateful for everything. 

I am a fine art photographer from Malaysia. In this series, I combined some of my favorite photos from “Queit” and “Happiness is Simple” into one complication.

I hope you enjoy it and thank you very much for reading!

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#1 Resolutions

My New Year’s resolutions.

I Spent 6 Years Trying To Heal My Depression And Then Returned With A Colorful Photography

#2 Enlightenment

The magical feeling of looking at something from the top of a mountain.

I Spent 6 Years Trying To Heal My Depression And Then Returned With A Colorful Photography

#3 Dawn In Angkor

A very quiet and serene morning in Cambodia.

I Spent 6 Years Trying To Heal My Depression And Then Returned With A Colorful Photography

#4 The Perfect Day

Being with your loved ones anytime, anywhere is a true blessing.

I Spent 6 Years Trying To Heal My Depression And Then Returned With A Colorful Photography

#5 Thousand Wishes

I Spent 6 Years Trying To Heal My Depression And Then Returned With A Colorful Photography

#6 Phoenix Mountain In Lantau Island

I Spent 6 Years Trying To Heal My Depression And Then Returned With A Colorful Photography

#7 Comforting Sound

The sound of the wave one after another.

I Spent 6 Years Trying To Heal My Depression And Then Returned With A Colorful Photography

#8 Clouds

Let’s dance!

I Spent 6 Years Trying To Heal My Depression And Then Returned With A Colorful Photography

#9 Moon River

Feeling romantic while listening to Audrey Hepburn.

I Spent 6 Years Trying To Heal My Depression And Then Returned With A Colorful Photography

#10 Fishing The Sunset

It reminds me of my Dad. I wish he could spend the rest of his life doing what he loves to do. I would still feel sorry for the fishes he caught, though.

I Spent 6 Years Trying To Heal My Depression And Then Returned With A Colorful Photography

#11 South Horizons In Hong Kong

I Spent 6 Years Trying To Heal My Depression And Then Returned With A Colorful Photography

#12 Seascape Of Tai O, Hong Kong

I Spent 6 Years Trying To Heal My Depression And Then Returned With A Colorful Photography

#13 Comforting Light

Calling it a day after seeing a beautiful sunset.

I Spent 6 Years Trying To Heal My Depression And Then Returned With A Colorful Photography

#14 Seaclouds

Even on the gloomy day, the nature never fails to inspire.

I Spent 6 Years Trying To Heal My Depression And Then Returned With A Colorful Photography

#15 The Second Day

I Spent 6 Years Trying To Heal My Depression And Then Returned With A Colorful Photography

#16 Shining Boathouse

Royal Belum Forest, the hidden gem of Perak, Malaysia.

I Spent 6 Years Trying To Heal My Depression And Then Returned With A Colorful Photography

#17 Breaking From Winter Mood

I once dreamed of white Christmas.

I Spent 6 Years Trying To Heal My Depression And Then Returned With A Colorful Photography

#18 Life In Oasis

I Spent 6 Years Trying To Heal My Depression And Then Returned With A Colorful Photography

#19 Dreamway

I had a silly dream when I was a child. To be a lost princess in the woods. I didn’t want to feel any fear but to feel excited for the adventure ahead!

I Spent 6 Years Trying To Heal My Depression And Then Returned With A Colorful Photography

#20 Hope

Even on your darkest day, the sun will still rise up for the next day.

I Spent 6 Years Trying To Heal My Depression And Then Returned With A Colorful Photography

#21 Believe In Extraordinary!

The swirling clouds after a rainy day.

I Spent 6 Years Trying To Heal My Depression And Then Returned With A Colorful Photography

#22 Kiku/Mums

The symbol of longevity and rejuvenation.

I Spent 6 Years Trying To Heal My Depression And Then Returned With A Colorful Photography

#23 Forest Healing

The connection with a forest that you feel through air, breeze and temperature change.

I Spent 6 Years Trying To Heal My Depression And Then Returned With A Colorful Photography

#24 The Hunter Valley

I Spent 6 Years Trying To Heal My Depression And Then Returned With A Colorful Photography

#25 Life Is An Adventure. Let Go Of Yesterday, The Beautiful Journey Starts Today

Let go of things you cannot control. But never let go of your belief.

I Spent 6 Years Trying To Heal My Depression And Then Returned With A Colorful Photography