I just want to know how you all are doing.
#1
Still living despite not being capable of feeling happy.
#2
I’m so close to releasing. like sitting at the edge of a cliff. i don’t want to hurt myself again but at the same time i crave it. i’m supposed to be okay. I was getting better.
#3
I had a bad 5 hours today. I went to the mall with my family to get a birthday gift for my friend and my dad was arguing with my mum constantly. We later went to do some window shopping and I started unintentionally talking in a high volume as I usually do when I’m excited so my mom told me to be quiet which I did but then my dad started shouting as a way to mock me. I started tearing up while he continued to mock me and lecture me about “believing I’m superior to everyone “ because of my reaction. Everything he said was about me being a villain and how he “went down to my level” to teach me a lesson. He sort of apologised and took me out for ice cream but subtly told us about how he’s the victim and we’re the bullies. I wonder if I really am the villain in life and I’m not sure about anything anymore. I don’t believe that happiness is a real thing anymore. Every time I feel happy, something always happens that makes me even more depressed. I think that I should stop doing things that make me happy if it’ll prevent more bad things from happening
#4
Barely eating anything. So in that sense I’m doing bad. I’m currently suffering from anorexia and that’s the reason why I don’t eat anything.
#5
I just want to see how you are.
#6
Eh..
#7
Not great. Anxiety on a rise and I think everyone hates me but I don’t want to talk about it because they probably have problems of their own and don’t need mine.
Sorry for burdening whoever is reading this
#8
ya know that good friend we all have named boredom, boredoms back and i bored i need stuff to do but bp has nothing to do
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